Have you ever felt like you just don't belong?

This week...

I don't even know how to start...

I took medication, got weak and missed my first Chem lab..

scored low on my first Chem Midterm

struggled in Math...

was too weak, tired for endurance swim...

couldn't straighten my kyphotic back in Modern Dance I

went to a Chem help session and didn't understand what anyone was asking, other than particle in a box...

I went to my dorm to look up Duke. I don't know why...I guess because I wanted to know how I got in here..

For the class of 2012, 96% of admitted students ranked in the top 10% of their high school class....

Admissions Selectivity

Duke is one of the most selective universities in the United States. For the Class of 2014, the University received a record-setting 26,770 applications and admitted 14.86% of the applicants, marking Duke's most selective admissions cycle in the history of the University. Furthermore, Duke currently ranks among the ten toughest universities to get into, according to admissions data for the Class of 2014 from The Huffington Post. The Atlantic also ranked Duke among the most selective schools in the country. At the graduate level, Duke's admissions rates, like most universities', vary considerably based on school and program. Based on admission statistics from U.S. News and World Report, Duke's most selective programs include its law, engineering, nursing, public policy, medical, and business schools.

The University is organized into two undergraduate, ten graduate and professional schools, and seven institutes. In its 2011 edition, U.S. News & World Report ranked the university's undergraduate program 9th among national universities, while ranking the medical, law, public affairs, nursing and business as high as 6th and as low as 15th, all among the top 15 in the United States. Duke University is also ranked 14th in the 2010 QS World University Rankings.

I keep asking myself what in the world I'm doing here...I feel a lot of the time like I don't belong...

I just can't tell if that's really it...or if I still haven't coped with everything that's happened...I haven't given myself time to heal..

I just kind of jumped right in to a work load far beyond my current capabilities...