Sometimes the thoughts of running and hiding in the master bedroom to get away from you fly through my mind, climbing out the backyard window, jumping over the fence and running to school, my escape...the place I threw all my heart into...
Sometimes all the hurt you brought me and those around me fill me with anger and tears, things that take me out of character...
Sometimes I cannot explain the abandonment, the accusations, the abuse...the pain. Every day memories of you drown me in my own world. My eyes puffy and swollen from thinking of the past..
Maybe I just want a parent. Someone to love me unconditionally in a way that only parents can. But you will never be that parent.
Why do I pity you? Why does it matter that you're healthy? Why do I care...?
Why am wishing you've changed, when I know it will only lead to more and more disappointment...
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