A reminder to my readers: why I don't proofread

Sometimes I go back and read my blogs and see there are words missing that I meant to fill in later, lines that don't make any sense, rambling and getting off-topic...all of these stylistic errors.  But I don't write my blogs like essays.  I write them as a stream of consciousness.  I purge my words and move on... it's my way of decluttering my mind--of stresses, worries, memories, voices, reminders.  Because my mind is the biggest obstacle in my life.  I realized not too long ago that the brain is fragile and that I can't wait for everything to resolve itself.  I have to make the effort to do so otherwise I find things from the past creeping back into the present, occupying my every thought.  My mind takes control of me and sometimes makes me someone I can't even begin to recognize, and I say or do things that I wouldn't in otherwise normal situations.    

Occasionally, I will go back and change/edit/add things in order to get more of that cathartic feeling, or to clear things up for myself--but rarely for grammar, punctuation, and all that jazz. 

But essentially, I write to get the private, raw truth and not some well-told partial truth to deflect reality.  Sure, I filter what I say at times, only because there are things that are far too shocking to let out on a blog with thousands of readers.  But I share what I can when I need to. 

I write what I think will bring me some semblance of peace.